private blog.

felicia- sweetest girlfriend around. stands by me through thick and thin. forever asking lesser and listening more. always there with the comforting hug and reassuring kiss. i really don't know what good i've done because yes i believe in karma and having her, i don't know. there's nothing more i can ask for from a girlfriend. and you've really surprised me with your emotional strength and your amazing level of tolerance. i really want to count more tomorrows with you. i love you baby.

joel- bestest buddy. the sweet boy whos always there with the listening ear. ever-so patient with my nonsense. puts up with my moodswings like, forever. a true gentleman whos personality is often mistaken by others for a horny guy. but theres much more to him than that and i'm glad i got the chance to know him better. i love this boy.

sarah- the last person i thought i'd be close to on the first day of school. turned out that she outshone all my 'buddies' and we grew really close. sharing common perspectives on many issues. forever the noisy and crazy one. but i hope you know that we'll always be by your side girl, whenever you need us. JEF wouldn't be complete without you. i love you my scandal.

sihui and jen- the sweetest darlings i can ask for. despite the lack of communication we're still holding on strong to our friendship. i know i can always turn to you guys whenever i need someone. you both have proven and shown me the essence of true friendship.

precy- my baby girl. though many things have driven us further apart, i know 3004 still stands. who cares if there are few meet-ups and we both have different cliques. i love you and i know you do too. i miss us when we were so much closer but it's okay because i don't have to see you everyday to know that you'll be here for me like how i'll be there for you. i love you baby.

lihui- still the cutest one around. we hardly ever meet and only have short and occasional conversations online. just joking with you about sec school days is enough to make me smile. i love you my little happy pill though you might not know it.

nelson, iman, mq, eugene- you four are the ones i really don't want to forget after sem 1. we've never been the bestest of all buddies but you four are really nice to talk to and i know part of my memories from W26P will def include you guys. i love you all too.

sue- what can i say? i finally believe that there are some things and feelings that can't be expressed through words. you're one of them. regardless of everything that has happened, i love you maybe someday i'll stop loving you but if theres a person i must thank for the perfect 1 year i had, it's you. you changed me in every way imaginable, for better or for worse, i'm still thankful. i don't care if your opinion of me has changed. be it others who influenced you or you yourself need a change it doesn't matter. thank you and goodbye.

nina- i love you my silly cibai. though you've said some truths that really hurt but perhaps you're right. it's different now but i'm so so so glad to know you and share those silly times w you, laughing at myself. simply, every time i meet you is a happy time for me. i'll still work hard to get us back to what we once were.

if there's any one i missed out, i still love you guys.

and for those whose names are supposed to be here but are not, the reasons are self-explanatory. either i don't value you enough or i don't respect you enough. thank you. we shall leave the defamatory words out from this post.

HELLO WHORE. MY SALUTATIONS TO YOU. I NEVER KNEW YOU WERE AN ARDENT FAN OF MINE. SERIOUSLY, DIDN'T YOUR MOTHER TEACH YOU HOW TO MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS? WHAT KICK DO YOU GET OUT OF BLABBERING YOUR LIFE AWAY? I REALLY WOULD LIKE T KNOW. GO SPREAD IT AROUND MORE OH PLEASE DO. PUT IT IN YOUR MSN NICK, YOUR FRIENDSTER SHOUT OUT, CNN, BBC, EVERY FUCKING BROADCAST CHANNEL AROUND. BUT THEN AGAIN WHY WOULD YOU STOOP T MY LEVEL. DEMURE AND SWEET GIRLS DON'T DO THAT. ONLY ROTTEN ONES LIKE ME DO.

everyone's entitled to their own opinions. now i've heard of that before. but 'everyone's entitled to be their own broadcaster. i've yet to learn of.'

[Řəza] "Dropout of Today" dok(: says:
bAngs girl
EVAN ALMIGHTY(msb, JEFS)dok PREev3004 says:
(:
okay(:
thanks for letting me know shes part of the audience
i never knew that
[Řəza] "Dropout of Today" dok(: says:
cmon frankly..its like as if you dunnoe
EVAN ALMIGHTY(msb, JEFS)dok PREev3004 says:
ha, i didnt know my life was interesting and highclass enough for her t take note of


i never knew even strangers took an interest in my life. is it really that interesting? i'm so honoured.

[Řəza] "Dropout of Today" dok(: says:
only that post
EVAN ALMIGHTY(msb, JEFS)dok PREev3004 says:
(: okay
i should blog about my fuck sessions w fel
would she report it to you as well?
haha

SERIOUSLY. O - M - F - G lah. period. i shouldnt spoil my friday nights. TMD CCB DONT LET ME SEE YOUR FACE EVER.






and i think i just lost sue. forever. whoever out there might celebrate. sue might celebrate. i don't know. lets just have more booze. why make someone whos insistent on leaving, stay?


she'll never know the tears i cried after i hung up the phone
she'll never know how tough the night was going to be for me
she'll never know how i didnt want this to end
she'll never know that every song i heard reminded me of her
she'll never know how i broke my gf's heart by crying for reasons she doesnt know
and no she'll never know despite all these i still love her.

she'll think she loved the wrong person right from the beginning
and it sucks knowing i cant change that.

I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me

This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true

whats the point? you tell me. its all gone, all ruined. AND ITS MY FAULT? i beg t differ. YOU FUCKING DROVE HER AWAY FROM ME. yeah blame others, thats my forte. SO SUE ME.

decided t stop blogging since its absolutely pointless and troublesome and i no longer have the urge nor the want t blog. and most importantly, unwanted visitors have found a way t render their support t this blog but sadly, my posts arent meant for their eyes.

so whoever whos linked me, you might as well delete me off and spare me the publicity. thanks but no thanks. love you all.

TO YOU, I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS IT YOU'RE TRYING TO PROVE. WHATEVER YOUR MOTIVES ARE, I'M SURE THEY'RE NOT WORTH ME KNOWING. NO I CAN'T DECIPHER YOUR ACTIONS EVEN AFTER ANALYZING THEM CLOSELY. DON'T RESORT TO LOWLY, UNDERHAND METHODS. WANT MY RUBBISH? CLAIM IT OPENLY. WHY DIDN'T YOU DO ALL THESE IN FRONT OF ME, I REALLY WONDER. YOUR PIOUS, INNOCENT, SELF-DENIAL ACT HAS FELL THROUGH. AND ALTHOUGH THERE'S A POSSIBILITY OF ME MISTAKING YOUR OH-SO INNOCENT ACTIONS FOR CHEAP, ADULTEROUS ONES I DON'T GIVE A FUCKING DAMN. SIMPLY CAUSE I HATE PEOPLE DOING THINGS BEHIND MY BACK. DON'T GET IN MY WAY COS I SWEAR I'LL SPIT AT YOU AND PULL OUT ALL YOUR HAIR(or should i say your remaining bangs). FUCKING PRODUCT OF A BASTARD.

and you, i don't know what you see in that piece of trash. like oh yes, she's giving you the attention and the sugar-coated words you've been longing for all your pathetic life. that sweet-faced, innocent little virgin has got through to you? happy fucking then. call me a jealous bitch, an unreasonable whore. whichever you please. your existence has ceased to affect me now. and stop speaking up for those two. it irks me. join some organisation since you love fighting for peoples' rights so much.

oh and how can i forget the last one that makes up this interesting trio. don't say my mother didn't teach me to act out of compassion. i'd gladly give you 5cents to go buy a life for yourself since getting it would be like a never-in-your-life thing. oh wait i forgot, you don't have a life. your little antics are honestly dumber than paris's. quit hanging around hoping to be the rebound of a broken-hearted person. that's honestly quite pathetic. it's sad. and going to the extent of lying.. well, what can i say? wake up from your dream of make-believe. she's not yours and never will be. and even if someday she gets so smitten by your foreign element, remember, whatever you're having, i had it once and discarded it. what's there to gloat about? i hope you break a limb or two during your acrobratic stunts. pretty good way to earn her sympathy since she'll be there to support you. don't say i'm not sharing strategies with you.

BYE FOR GOOD. KISSES TO THOSE I LOVE. (:

PICTURES FIRST! kindly ignore any excess fats/tummy rolls/pimples you see.


my favourite girl, Miss Super Toned Body.

thats my adorable scandal, pok, Mr Muscle and Mannie!

FAVOURITES! (:

MY THREE SEXAYS! love you guys lah.

sunday

i dont know what time i woke up. hurried t j.e t buy dye and cabbed back. bottomline is, my hair sucks and b's a greenhorn at highlighting. DON'T ASK. TMD PUACHEEBYE. fugly hair but it's okay, we had fun and I'M DYEING IT ANOTHER COLOR SOON. HAHAHA. i have spoilt hair. so jo, b and i were the fucking dua bai people who arrived last at the bbq. b and i cabbed down t eastcoast from my place. reached there somewhat earlier than jo. missed a few of them, oblivious t the existence of most. hung out w ra, ken, b and jo mostly. so the party was a flop (in my opinion) but it's okay because i enjoyed the company of JEFS and ken. and it was nice seeing iman, nelson, mq, pok, ch, rid, kok, dom, wanigila and prettyfana. fagged like mad, took photos w selected people, hugged selected people and bitched about selected people. i'm gonna miss W26P.

the rest left and so did ra and ken. so it JEF had macs at marine parade. (only b was eating-.-) then b and i took 197 but halfway through i was having this really bad motion sickness so got down at bukit merah and cabbed back. had steamboat w b at 430am in the morning. madness then slept at 9am. HAHAHA. screwed biological clock.

mon

i think i woke up at 7pm. dined w b outside, came back home and watched the babe/hunk thing. one word- Fugly. bitched alot, had steamboat round 3am in the room. hahaha, classic. then tried t sleep early but we couldnt apparently. played games till 7am and then had a silly roleplay that made b cry. and she calls me a sadistic girlfriend. my silly, i love you and there's no way i'd ever say those things t you. they were an act, but what i genuinely feel for you isn't an act and you know it. slept at 830am and poor b had foodpoisoning throughout the morning. BUT apparently i didn't know anything and slept throughout. sorry love.

tues

woke at 630pm and b left at 8 t have dinner by herself. but then again i felt really rotten at the thought of her eating alone and so went off t meet her, accompanied her and she sent me home. and recently i'm really hooked onto the telly. there are some really amazing programmes on national geographic and discovery and no they aren't really intellectual but really really interesting. so i've not had any food since 5am yesterday. surprisingly i'm not very hungry. and i'm getting tired of blogging.

i loved the nights spent w you. hearing your silly bedtime stories, getting tucked in, cuddling w you under the same blanket, being kissed by you, waking up and seeing you lying beside me, planning all the tomorrows w you, laughing at each other's silliness, washing the dishes w you, squeezing the shampoo and body soap into little shot glasses for you and the list goes on. i love you girl. sleeping will never be the same without you here t tuck me in. i miss you like crazy.

oh and i just discovered my obsession w giraffes. they're really pretty creatures w nice long lashes, nice lips and really sweet-looking eyes. prettiest animals ever. i tried t kiss one. (okay that's not very true) pictures at www.friendster.com/evanrocks

BYENOW.

okay so i slept at 10 am this morning. FUCK. i'm gonna look like an old hag. HAHAHA. was supposed t go t bed at 7am but baby and i ended up having a highly emotional talk that lasted till 9am AND that brat dragged me out t have breakfast w her. oh god. i was falling asleep over my food. trudged (YES TRUDGED) home and collapsed onto the bed and died till 3plus when sue came over. initial plans were cancelled and we (me and sue) went out to dinner. and hell yes i miss you nina. my nina. hahaha. my fucking crush. :D BAR-HOPPING W YOU SOON!

three weeks holidays. HAHA. plus the unofficial one month break i gave myself. woohoo, seven weeks away from RP. and so theres a bbq tmr at East coast and no i don't plan t go home but damn JEFS have yet t tell me the plans. meeting sue early tmr t grab my tanktop AND my pack of fags. THEN t meet baby t highlight my hair. my fucking butchered hair. then we'll probably head t ecp. i miss getting wasted. lets get wasted tmr. HAHAHA. can't wait t see selective people tmr. namely eugene, iman, nelson, mq, chunhao (MINE! :D), pai kia, wanigiler and whoever i missed out. AND NO I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD T SEEING THE TWO EYESORES. the fat one and the retro one. YUCKFUCK. and of course I CAN'T WAIT T SEE JEFS.

i'm ranting. -.-

i miss lihui fucking alot. i'm glad we still talk in msn. LOVEKISSHUGSLOVE.
AND I LOVE KASPER SCHMEICHEL! damn fucking alot also.
and i love reminiscing about secondary school days.
but not the people, sadly.
precy i miss you you bitch. WHERE ARE YOU.
and get well soon blackie. hope the masturbating man isnt disturbing your sleep anymore. HAHAHA VISIT YOU SOON!

HAHA BYE. dumb post.